Hi, B’ here. You
remember I was chained up at the end of the last story? Well I’m still here and Confiada’s got
josh! I can’t cope, I haven’t seen my
foal for two weeks!
(BEYANCCA DESOLVES INTO TEARS AT THE THOUGHT.)
“Oi! Stop
crying you big foal!” I looked round to
see Confiada standing in front of my door.
She was kicking at it with her forefeet.
I got up from my prone position and walked as far as my chain would
allow. I was stopped a foot from the
door. Confiada looked at her handiwork
with satisfaction.
“Stuffed you didn’t I.” She remarked fatly. I bared my teeth at her and tried to boot the
door as hard as I could. But my foot
couldn’t reach the door. I gave up and
concentrated on jerking the chain taught with all my force! Confiada watched my discomfort with
undisguised delight.
“You won’t
get free Beyancca. You won’t you
know.” She teased. I stopped struggling against my restraints
and lay down. Yes, I knew it was
hopeless to even attempt to free myself.
Confiada wasn’t that stupid. My
mind wandered back to the time when she had come to make sure I was securely
tied up. While Confiada tied me up,
Jamie made quite sure I wasn’t going to try anything on. He kicked and thumped me until I was nearly
unconscious. Then he stopped, let me
recover a little and started it all over again!
They had trust me up and left me to suffer. Josh had been taken away from me, making my
situation worse. I had no idea what he
was going through at the hooves of Confiada.
Was she holding him hostage? Or
was she just playing with me? I couldn’t
be sure. What I knew was that I hadn’t
seen him now for two weeks. Confiada
left me and I settled back onto the concrete.
You see, there was no straw in my box.
Also my boots had been removed so I was barefoot now. I had no protection against stones or the
hard concrete. Because my hooves were
softened by the use of horseshoes, they weren’t up to the job when it came to
protecting my feet from stones and other sharp objects on the road. As a result I was footsore already. You might be asking why the Manageress didn’t
intervene in this. The plain truth was
that Confiada guarded me jealously. If
anyone came within spitting distance of me she would beat them up. So the humans never attempted to get close. Even the lunging whip couldn’t bring Confiada
to order. I drifted on the edge of an
uncomfortable sleep. Suddenly I heard
Confiada yelling for me:
“Come on
Beyancca! Get your lousy carcass out
here now!” I scrambled to my feet, swore
viciously as the concrete irritated them and staggered towards the door. I stopped as my chain jerked taught.
“I can’t
come to you Confiada, I’m still chained up!”
I shouted back. Confiada came
blustering into the box and kicked me on the way past. Her hoof connected with my fetlock! I squealed with pain and raised my foot off
the ground to massage the painful area.
This was what Confiada’d been waiting for. She waited until my foot was clear of the
ground and then kicked the sole of my hoof, hard! Too bloody hard! This was meant to hurt me, and it did! I screamed in agony and lashed out with my
hind feet. I heard Confiada yell as I caught
her a sharp crack on her nose. The chain
was off now, I turned and attacked Confiada for all my life was worth! I converted the pain from my fore feet into
anger to spur myself on! I beat her into
the concrete! When I’d finished I was
bitten, bleeding, sore, sweating, but victorious! I made quite sure Confiada was tied up before
I escaped into the main yard. My feet
hurt like hell as I walked. In the end I
had to stop. I stood leaning against
Ruby’s door, lifting my right forefoot, then my left, my right hind and so
on. I did this to take the weight off
each foot so that the pain wasn’t too much to cope with. I looked over to where the barn stood.
“Wana get
over there.” I thought. I put one foot in front of the other, slowly,
very slowly I limped towards the barn. I
staggered up the two steps and tore franticly at the bolt on my door. I hadn’t eaten much during my imprisonment
and now I was weak and in desperate need of food and a lot of attention. You see, even though the food was there, I
hadn’t eaten much, mainly because Confiada wouldn’t let me. She would stand guard over the bucket and beat
me off when ever I tried to get a mouthful.
In the end I stopped trying. I
scrabbled the bolt open and yanked furiously at the door. It gave and I flopped down on the straw
suffering from acute exhaustion and severe hunger. I sank into a restless sleep.
“If you’re
so hungry Beyancca, why don’t you eat?”
I hear you ask. Well the reason
is this. I was so weakened by the
treatment I received at Confiada’s hooves that I couldn’t summon up the
strength to. I lay there feeling worse
than I had for ages. I knew I must eat,
but I couldn’t, didn’t much want to anyway.
I got up after an hour or so of just lying there. I shuffled over to my haynet and took a few
half hearted mouthfuls of straw. Forcing
myself to eat was a struggle. I didn’t
want to, but common sense told me that if I didn’t eat when I had the chance, I
might never get the chance again. I
managed five or six mouthfuls of straw before I was too sickened by the sight,
smell and taste of the stuff to eat any more.
Flopping back down again I, I felt something nuzzling me! I screamed in
terror! A voice I didn’t know said
gently:
“Hey B’,
come on dear, it’s only me, Ellie, don’t you remember me?” I had been so absorbed in my weakened state
that I had failed to notice her arrival. Ellie surveyed my dishevelled appearance with
undisguised horror.
“What did
she do to you?” She asked.
“Um,
starved me into submission, beat me black and blue. That sort of thing.” I replied.
Ellie nuzzled my shoulder. I flinched
away from her as my bruises complained.
I saw Ellie’s distress as she realised for the first time how badly
battered I was. She brushed my nose
gently with hers. Ellie asked:
“Have you
told the Manageress about this?” I shook
my head.
“She knows it’s been going on. She couldn’t get close to me for two
horrendous weeks Ellie.” I replied. Ellie suddenly looked very unhappy.
“What’s
the matter?” I asked gently. Ellie gulped hard and blinked back tears.
“Your
foal, Josh, he,,,” Ellie took a deep
breath and it all came out in a rush:
“He’s
been incarcerated by Confiada, hostage like.
She’s kept him in her box and hasn’t let him out for two weeks now. I watched them both, to see no harm came to
Josh. Sometimes he wept because he was
missing you. But Confiada, she,
she,,,” Ellie suddenly buried her head
in my shoulder and broke down completely.
“She hit
him! Confiada, she beat him until he was
nearly unconscious! Then she left him to
suffer!” Poor Ellie was now crying her
eyes out, and I couldn’t blame her. She
gulped and continued:
“Confiada
told Josh to shut up more times than I can remember. I think Carina was right when she said
Confiada would make a bloody awful mother.”
“Where
did you hear that? You weren’t
there.” I said.
“No, I
wasn’t. But Carina expressed her views
on Confiada when she and I were in a field together. She told me about the argument with
josh.” I let Ellie get it out of her
system. It must have been hell for her
to keep what she’d seen locked away for as long as she did. But now it was out and action could be taken,
first to rescue Josh from his tormentor, and then secondly, to teach Confiada
that she couldn’t do what she did and get away with it! I told Ellie about my dramatic escape from
the slammer.
“So
that’s where all the blood’s come from.”
She said.
“hmmm,
yeah, most of it.” I admitted. Ellie got up from her prone position and
shook herself. She did a thorough job of
it as well. She seemed to shake from her
nose right to the tip of her tail. I
can’t say if she did this for sure, but that’s what it looked like. Ellie noticed me watching her.
“Neat
trick isn’t it.” She observed.
“Yeah,
how d’you do it?” I asked. Ellie then did something so human that I had
to take a second look to confirm what I’d seen.
She raised her right forefoot and touched her nose, much like a human
raises their hand and touches their nose with a forefinger to signify that
they’re sworn to secrecy.
“That’s for
me to know and you to find out B’.” She
said. I stared at Ellie in utter
astonishment!
“How the
hell did you do that?” I asked.
“Do
what?” She enquired.
“how did
you touch your nose with your forefoot?
I saw you do it Ellie, you can’t deny it, so how’s it done?” Ellie looked mystified.
“Honestly
Beyancca, I don’t know what you’re on about.”
She replied. I shook my hoof at
her.
“Ellie! You did! You raised your right forefoot and touched
your nose in a very human gesture. Where
did you learn to do that?” Ellie smiled
suddenly.
“I watch
humans a lot of the time. They’re big on
sign language you know. I just pick the
signals I want to imitate, and have a go.
First I learn what they mean, don’t want to be saying the wrong thing in
the wrong place do I.” I admired her
perseverance, I felt sure I would have
given up very soon indeed. But Ellie,
from what I could tell about her from our brief meetings before this, was a
horse who had drive when it pleased her.
She looked at me.
“Better
go and rescue Josh from Confiada hadn’t we.”
She said.
“What? Both of us?” I asked dumbly.
` “Yeah,
you don’t think I was gonna let you go alone do you?” Ellie replied. I hugged my new-found friend. Ellie was quite a bit smaller than me and
still is. She’s a New forest pony, where
as I am a cross breed between an Irish Draft horse and another breed that I
can’t even begin to pronounce. Ellie
didn’t seem to mind my embracing her. If
anything she returned it. We walked out
of the barn and along the alley to where Confiada was still struggling to free
herself from my handiwork. She glared at
me with pathological hatred!
“I
despise you Beyancca! You’ve really
stuffed me this time! I don’t know how
many times I’ve tried, but I can’t get free!
I’ve tied myself into all kinds of knots in my attempts to gain
freedom,,,” here Confiada seemed to
collapse within. Her voice cracked as
she said:
“And now
I’m at your mercy, I, I’m finished!” She
said this last bit with harsh resentment.
I could see she wasn’t exaggerating her state. Sweat had stained her usually beautiful fur
and she was shaking from released tension.
Ellie asked:
“Are you
going to apologise for what you did to Beyancca Confiada? Also, will you tell her where her foal
is? What have you done to her foal over
the last couple of weeks Confiada? I saw
what you did, but I want you to tell Beyancca yourself. Admit you did it, go on.” She coaxed.
Confiada related all that Ellie had told me earlier, without the tears
of course. Confiada found no qualms with
mistreating Josh. While Confiada
re-counted her catalogue of abusive behaviour, I watched Ellie’s reactions to
what she said. I was not surprised to
find that Ellie felt very angry with Confiada for what she did. At one point the anger nearly boiled over
into a full blooded assault. Ellie
quivered with rage as Confiada re-counted how she’d held Josh down and beaten
him with a lunging whip for daring to ask if he could be allowed to go and see
me. As for me, well, the emotions I was
experiencing ranged from rage to fear, and from there to rage again. What I wanted to know more than anything was
whether Josh was unharmed, despite all Confiada was telling us, and secondly,
where she’d hidden him. I stopped
Confiada in her tracks and asked sharply:
“Where’s
Josh Confiada? Where’s my foal!” I still had no boots on so I couldn’t kick
her. I just waved a forefoot in her
face. Confiada replied:
“He’s in
the topmost field. I’ve been keeping him
out in the rain and wind these last few days.
I meant to harden him up, make him see what he’d have to endure during
the winter.” Ellie said:
“But we’re
brought indoors for the winter.”
Confiada shook her head.
“If
Beyancca, the bitch! If she hadn’t
escaped and put me in here, then, I, I’d make Josh stay out there all
winter! He’d know what real suffering
is! He’d freeze to death and then, you
Beyancca, you would know what I really wanted!
I hate you bringing other horses into the yard! I cannot abide Josh, I hate his guts! He’s a scrap, a snivelling scrap I tell
you! Get rid of him Beyancca! You’ve got no need of him! Kill Josh if you have to!” I was stunned.
“I
can’t! I can’t kill my own foal!” I thought.
Although Josh wasn’t related to me in any way, I now regarded him as my
foal. I was going to do the best I could
for him and that’s final! I kicked
Confiada, much as it hurt to do so. I
kicked her hard in her right foreleg making her scream With rage and pain! Ellie finally lost control of her
emotions. She struck out at Confiada
with all her force! Ellie’s boot was
caught by the now maddened mare and twisted sharply! Ellie squealed in agony and collapsed on top
of Confiada. Confiada made sure she
kicked Ellie a few times and made her bleed.
Ellie came out of her scrap badly bitten in her nose, bleeding from her
right ear where Confiada had torn it, and to top it off, she’d lost a chunk of
mane. Confiada had ripped it out with
her teeth. She shoved Ellie off her and
stood up as best she could. Confiada
screeched:
“If I
wasn’t tied up I’d murder you Ellie!”
Ellie looked frightened at this suggestion. I looked at Ellie’s wounds. Her nose and ear were bleeding and the boot
on her right forefoot had come adrift and lay on the straw on the other side of
the box. I retrieved it and helped Ellie
to put it on again. While she put her
foot in and made sure the tip of her hoof touched what would be the toe on a
human’s boot, I tightened the ratchet thing that stopped the boot from coming
adrift.
“Thanks
B’.” Ellie said. She sniffed:
“Better
get out of here and rescue your foal hadn’t we?” She suggested. So we left Confiada’s box and made our way
through the now pouring rain towards the field where Confiada had said she’d
left Josh. The weather was dreadful now. The rain came down at a forty five degree
angle to the ground, stinging our faces as it fell. Ellie looked in a sorrier state than ever
now. The blood from her ear had dried to begin with, but now it was
mixing with the rainwater and running down her face. Plus her fur wasn’t in a very good state
after she’d been crying. In short, Ellie
looked a proper mess.
We found josh.
He was where Confiada’d said she’d left him. And yes he was cold, wet and very
frightened. When he saw us at first he
couldn’t believe what he was seeing. But
then he realised that his torment was over.
The poor chap shook from nose to tail!
I walked up to him and hugged my very homesick foal. He wanted to be warm, safe, loved. For two weeks he’d been none of these. He’s had to worry about whether he’d ever see
his foster mum ever again, and no foal should have to worry about things like
that. Josh pressed himself against me,
shivering like mad! I hugged him
tightly. Ellie watched this display of
affection, all the while trying not to cry.
Josh noticed her and made comment.
“Orange
horse’s crying mum. Soppy old thing
isn’t she.”
“Oi! Less of the old, and I’m bay, not bloody
orange!” Ellie retaliated.
“Sorry.” Josh replied.
“Better
get you back and see what we can do about drying you off hadn’t we.” I said.
Josh grimaced:
“Yeah,
bloody awful it’s been out ‘ere mum.” He
said. We wandered back to the yard in
silence. Josh broke it after a bit:
“you
know what Confiada said about you being a ‘orrable leader mum? Are you still leader now?” I reassured him that I was and told him not
to worry about Confiada.
“Why
not? She’s a bitch that one!” Josh said.
“I tied
her up in knots Josh, she won’t be able
to get free.” I replied. Josh whooped:
“Yeah! Nice one mum!” I smiled down at him.
“Let’s
get you dry.” I said. Josh, Ellie and I retired to my box and I
dove into the back of it to get something I’d pinched from the Manageress’s
house a good month earlier. Ellie stared
at what I produced from beneath the straw.
“That’s a
towel Beyancca, you’ve stolen a towel!”
Ellie exclaimed. I smiled:
“yeah,
one of the Manageress’s best ones I’ll bet.”
I said. Ellie touched it with her
muzzle.
“It’s
soft and warm B’. Just right for drying
off the little chap.” She had another
thought. Ellie rubbed her cheek against
the towel, feeling it’s warmth and softness.
“How did
you keep it so warm Beyancca?” She
asked.
“I sleep
on the straw over there. I kept the
towel under the straw so it would be warmed by my body heat. The straw insulated it from the outside
air. So one nice warm towel for
emergencies.” I replied. We wrapped Josh in the huge towel and Ellie
and I lay down on either side of him to keep him warm. Josh settled down and was soon asleep. Ellie looked across at me, her ravaged face
seemed to hit me afresh. I hooked the
tea-towel off the door and dipped an end in my water bucket. I then, as well as a horse can do this, tried
to wipe away the blood and tear stains from Ellie’s nose. She didn’t seem to mind my
ministrations. When I’d finished Ellie’s
face looked almost normal. Ellie smiled:
“You’re
really gentle you know B’.” She
said. I smiled back at her.
“I try to
be.” I replied. Meanwhile Josh slept on. Ellie settled down on the opposite side of
him to where I was lying and we drifted off ourselves.
I was suddenly woken by a horrendous banging on my
door.
“Um
yeah, wha’du’wan’?” I drawled. An angry voice said:
“Beyancca! Get your backside out
here now!” I recognised the Manageress’s
tones. Scrambling to my feet I opened my
door and was met by a blast of enraged invective from the human.
“Hang on
a minute, stop, stop will you!” I
pleaded. The Manageress stopped shouting
at me and listened, finally.
“What’s
bothering you? Have I missed another
lesson? Or is it that I’m never around
when you want me?” I asked. The Manageress replied:
“No, none
of those actually. I found a towel
missing from my airing cupboard a few days ago.
I wondered if you, with your liking for towels, had seen it?” The incriminating evidence was wrapped around
Josh. The Manageress could not have
failed to see it, but she made no mention of it.
“Perhaps
she wants me to point the towel out to her, admit I did it.” I thought.
The Manageress picked up the blood stained tea-towel and looked at it in
horror!
“What’s
been going on here? Have you been
Bleeding B’?” She asked. I told her about Confiada’s attack on Ellie
and of how I’d wiped the blood off Ellie’s nose with the tea-towel. The Manageress took a look at Ellie, who was
still asleep, and pronounced that she was fit to work.
“Confiada’s got a lot of answering to do.” The Manageress stated. I then dropped the bombshell. I told the Manageress about every little
thing Confiada had let slip during our
meeting. By the time I’d finished, the
Manageress was furious!
“yeah B’,
keep the towel for as long as you like.
The poor chap needs it more than I do.
Man! Confiada’s gonna get a proper
hiding for this!” She yelled. With that a very angry Manageress strode out
of the barn in search of Confiada. Of
course, she didn’t have to look far to find her. I watched the Manageress go.
“Confiada’s in for a roasting.” I
thought. Ellie brushed my nose with
hers. I turned to her:
“Josh’s
still asleep.” She said. I shook myself and looked out at the fast
darkening sky. The stable clock said
five in the evening now. I noticed that
the rain had become more intense and the yard was now swimming in
rainwater. Horses and humans sloshed
about their business while the heavens vented their anger on the yard. Carmen came splashing into the barn and stuck
her head in at my door. She looked angry
and frightened.
“Wha’s
matter Carmen?” I asked lazily. Carmen hesitated:
“You still
leader Beyancca?” She asked.
“yes I am,
you haven’t been listening to Confiada by any chance?” I enquired.
Carmen wrinkled her nose:
“It’s hard
not to. She’s persistent and won’t shut
up!” I said:
“yes, I’m
still leader, despite what Confiada’s been saying. She’s only jealous because she didn’t get
it. What can I do for you Carmen?” I asked.
She hesitated once more, summoning up the courage to tell me what she
felt she had to.
“It’s
Confiada, she’s been attacking me B’.”
Carmen suddenly buried her head in my shoulder and wept.
“She
keeps going for me at the slightest opportunity. I can’t stop her, neither can any of the
instructors. It’s hell B’!” She sobbed.
I cradled her head on my shoulder and let her cry it out. I knew what a bitch Confiada could be when
she wanted. I’d been on the receiving
end of her abusive remarks and taunting comments. I sympathised with Carmen,,, I stopped!
I thought:
“What the hell’s Confiada doing in the riding
school anyway? She’s been
imprisoned! Surely the humans haven’t
done the unthinkable and let her out!
Have they? I hope they
haven’t.” I shook myself free of Carmen,
a little too roughly I’m sorry to say, and escaped into the barn, Ellie woke
Josh and they followed. I approached the
riding school to be met with the sight of Confiada sprawled on the concrete
where one of the Field horses had dropped her three seconds before. The Field horse in question stood over her
bristling with rage!
“Why
should a field horse want to attack Confiada?
I thought she was on their side?”
I asked myself. But then I took
another look at the Field horse and saw that it wasn’t a field horse at all,
but Balugue! Balugue had obviously had
enough of Confiada, and contrary to her usual avoidance tactic, had attacked
the mare she hated more than she’d ever hated any other. As a result, Confiada was now unconscious on
the concrete.
All the fire had died from Balugue now. She stood shaking with fright.
“Oh dear,
what have I done? What have I
done!” She wailed. It was plain that She couldn’t understand
what had happened to her. Balugue
couldn’t comprehend the fact that she’d just laid a horse out on the concrete
to dry. She stared down at Confiada in
horror!
“I
didn’t, I didn’t mean to do her real harm!
She, she just tipped me over the edge!
I couldn’t stop myself, I, I just hit her! And she fell! And now, now, well she’s like this.” She whimpered. She waved a boot at Confiada. Confiada still lay inert and unheeding on the
concrete. She was breathing, that was a
good sign, the only good sign. Suddenly
Confiada’s eyes focused on my face. She
bared her teeth and swore harshly in a whisper.
What she said doesn’t bare thinking about. Confiada struggled to her feet and stood
swaying alarmingly. She looked awful, I
had no idea what Balugue had done to her.
Confiada coughed and gasped for air, her whole body trembling! I honestly thought she’d die in front of
me. Confiada wheeled round and staggered
off towards her box. She stumbled about
a bit and finally made it. The door
slammed behind her and there was no more sound from her. I stared at Balugue.
“What
happened?” I asked. Balugue stared at me wildly.
“I, I
don’t know B’. I don’t know!” She replied hoarsely. I told her of my thoughts on the subject.
“Yeah,
that sort of happened, I suppose it did, Oh Beyancca, what’ve I done to
her?” Balugue buried her head in my
shoulder.
Meanwhile, Josh and Ellie had been watching this with
some degree of amazement. They couldn’t
work out, however hard they tried, how Balugue could ever outfight
Confiada. Ellie came to much the same
conclusion as I had, while Josh couldn’t work it out, and was too young and too
impatient to think about it for long anyway.
Balugue recovered a little and levered her weight off me. I shook myself, wheeled round and left the yard
at a trot. Ellie and Josh followed
me. I led them up the track to where
Fleur’s wood was re-generating after it had been cut down in error. Ellie and Josh walked amongst the trees in
silence, while I thought long and hard about my situation. Confiada had been released, that was certain
now. Now I had to be on my guard and keep
an eye on Josh. I knew Confiada would
have a go at him if she had half a chance.
I was brought out of my trance by Ellie resting her head on my shoulder. She seemed to be shaking violently.
“It’s c,
Cold B’.” She stammered. I hugged her and turned to walk back to the
barn. Josh came sliding in and took out
Ellie’s forefeet! She crashed down on
her side with a squeal of indignation! I
turned on Josh and nipped him hard! The
foal yelped and fled! When I was sure he
was out of our way, I took a look at Ellie.
She had managed to get to her feet and now stood wondering what had
happened to her. She rested her head
once more on my shoulder. We walked
away, leaving Josh to find his own way back.
“Punishment for what you did.” I thought. I was determined that Josh wasn’t going to
end up like Dominic had. Hoof happy
Bastard he was! Eventually Josh realised
he was on his own and came scampering down the lane to find me.
“Mum,
mum! Why’re you leaving me? Don’t leave me mum!” he yelled.
I saw the look of pity on Ellie’s face.
“Don’t
feel sorry for him Ellie. He’s got to
learn that he can’t go round playing tricks on any horse he pleases. I don’t wan’a make the same mistakes Domino
did.” I said. Ellie asked:
“I know domino, but who the hell’s
Dominic? I’ve heard of him, sort of,
well, he’s regarded as a bit of a bad character in the yard.” I replied:
“yeah,
mmm, well, Dominic’s dead, Jamie killed
him.” Ellie’s eyes widened.
“You
what? I thought he was still
about!” Ellie laughed slightly:
“ And there’s me, all the time looking out for a
piebald stallion with mean eyes and a desire to beat up anyone who got in his
way.” Josh had rejoined us and was
trying to get a word in edgeways.
“When you two have stopped gossiping about
an ‘orse, who isn’t ‘ere so ‘e can’t defend ‘imself, can I join the
discussion?”
“You mean
you wan’a gossip?” Ellie asked.
“No no
no, silly ‘orse you are Ellie! Of course
I don’t. What I would like to know is,
well, yeah, forget it. Oh yeah!
Dominic, who was ‘e? And what’s
all this about ‘im being a bad chap? I’d
‘ave thought that an ‘orse like ‘im would ‘ave been good for defending the
‘erd.” He said.
“He was
good, very good at doing what he did.
But when he got corrupted, well then it’s a different story Josh.” I replied.
Josh thought for a bit and said:
“yeah,
all right mum.” He wasn’t interested
enough to pursue the matter further. But
Ellie found Dominic’s story irresistible.
“Tell me
more Beyancca.” She pleaded.
“You
won’t like what I’m gonna tell you Ellie.
It’s not at all pleasant.” I
warned her. Ellie waved this aside:
“Shock
me.” She replied. So I told her everything that has been narrated
in previous stories to do with Dominic’s character. Ellie went through many emotions, every one
in the book I think. The horses she felt
most sorry for were Domino and Mac. When
I told her of how Dominic was planning to kill Mac, and then his mother, she
nearly broke down.
“That’s
terrible! Oh no! I couldn’t cope with that! I’d go mad!”
She said. Despite his apparent
lack of interest, Josh had been listening to my story and trying to make sense
of the reasons why Dominic should have gone over to, as he saw it, the side of
the Field horses. By now we’d reached
the yard and the night had drawn in tight around us. The driving yard where Ellie lived looked
dark and uninviting at nine in the evening.
She put her head in and decided not to venture any further. Ellie turned to me shame faced. “Look, B’, I know this might sound
silly, foalish even coming from a grown mare.
But can I stay with you tonight?”
I nuzzled her cheek gently.
“Dominic’s dead, he can’t harm you Ellie.” I reassured her. Ellie gulped, her real feelings showing at
last.
“Your
story’s really shaken me up B’.” Ellie
admitted. She sighed:
“I’m
really being silly aren’t I B’. Go on
say it. Tell me I’m just a nervous
wreck.” I replied:
“No Ellie.
I’d be shaken up by what happened.
Indeed I was for quite a long time.
Yes you can stay the night if you like.”
I hugged her, Ellie laughed slightly:
“Sorry
about all this.” She said.
“Stop
apologising for everything Ellie.” I
replied. I said:
“There’s
another reason for you wanting to stay the night with me isn’t there.” Ellie looked shocked!
“How, how
did you know?” She asked incredulously.
“I watched
your reaction to the darkness in the driving yard. I saw you were perturbed by it.” I replied.
Josh said:
“er, mum,
it’s getting cold out ‘ere.” I replied:
“Go back
to our box then Josh.” Josh said:
“But I
can’t! Mum, there’re big ‘orses, ‘orrid
‘uge ‘orses lurking around the yard.” I
looked down at my foal.
“Don’t
talk about Ruby, or Chantilly, or Valencia like that, they’d never forgive
you. As for Confiada, well, yeah you’re
right about her. But she’s not a threat
to you josh. She’s locked away in her
box, she can’t get out.” Suddenly Ellie
screamed!
I whipped round to see Confiada towering over
Ellie! She had dropped her where she
stood, and now she stood over her threatening the poor pony with
destruction! Josh ultimately saved
Ellie’s life. His terror was so acute
that he got previous events mixed up. He
yelled:
“There’s Dominic’s mother! She
‘as to be! Domino was too kind to ave
given birth to a sod like that! You’re
Guilty of making Dominic like ‘e was Confiada!
I know you are!” Confiada turned
on the little chap and threw him into the air.
I screamed at her, incoherent sound, it was just a yell of pure
terror! Josh flew threw the air, before
landing on the concrete with a “CRACK!”
Confiada charged off, leaving two very frightened horses and one
unconscious foal. Ellie struggled to her
feet, she looked shell shocked! She
looked awful! Ellie staggered towards me
and collapsed against me.
“Josh, is
he all right B’?” She gasped. I looked over at my poor foal. He was still sprawled in an undignified
fashion on the concrete. I told Ellie to
lean against the wall while I went to take a look at him.
I found a very bruised, very frightened foal. He was so terrified that he daren’t move for
fear that Confiada might return and finish him off. When I touched him with my nose Josh screamed
in terror!
“hey Josh,
it’s me love. It’s mum, there’s nothing
to be scared of. Confiada’s gone far
away from here now.” I said gently. I lay down beside my foal on the freezing ground
and let him rest his nose against mine.
He said:
“Mum, It, it’s cold mum!” I signalled to Ellie to help me get Josh back to my box. She helped me carry him, and we got him home safe and sound. The poor foal flopped down exhausted on the straw. Ellie lay down beside Josh on his right and I did likewise on his left. Ellie said something under her breath that I didn’t quite catch:
“What was
that?” I asked. Ellie sighed:
“I don’t
know why we can’t just have a trouble free week B’. Not a week goes by without horses getting at
each other.” I hugged her tightly.
“Go to
sleep Ellie dear.” I coaxed. Josh had already nodded off and I could see
Ellie was sleepy. But her fears were
keeping her awake, and that was not good.
Ellie huddled closer to Josh, actually resting her head on his
shoulder. She closed her eyes and was
soon sleeping peacefully. Now I had a
huge problem. After telling Ellie and
Josh to sleep, I couldn’t! I sighed and
shifted slightly. I felt so unhappy
about the situation with Confiada that I couldn’t even attempt to sleep. But nor could I go for a walk, for I was
propping up two horses. I knew that I’d
run the risk of ending up like Rosie had just before the fire that nearly cost
us dearly. Rosie had been on the edge of
a precipice in the days leading up to the fire.
I knew that I could get that bad if I didn’t let everything go for a
while and get on with my job. I looked
across at Ellie. She lay with her head
on Josh’s shoulder and her legs tucked up under her. Turning to Josh, I saw he was lying with all
four legs outstretched.
“There’re
two horses sleeping peacefully, and I can’t get any!” I thought angrily. I looked down at my hooves. My boots still hadn’t been found, and now my
hooves were getting hardened and the pain was a lot less than it had been. I now appreciated the need for the mountain
boots, in fact, I missed mine. I decided
to corner Confiada and ask her where she’d hidden them. Ellie rolled onto her right side, freeing
Josh from his burden. Although I didn’t
mind in the slightest that Ellie and Josh were using me as a pillow, I wanted
to go and find my boots. Eventually josh
shifted also and I was able to get up quietly, open my door and escape into the
yard. I wandered along to where
Confiada’s box stood and banged on the door.
Confiada’s squeal of rage would have woken every horse
in the place!
“What the
bloody hell do you want!” She demanded.
“Um, my
boots maybe.” I replied. Confiada looked down at my hooves with
distaste.
“yeah,
well, they’re in the tackroom, but it’s locked.
You’ll have to suffer till morning.
But get your boots on as soon as you can Beyancca, your hooves look
bloody awful!” She snapped. I looked at hers. Confiada had refused to wear the boots from
the outset and nothing the Manageress could do would make her consider wearing
them. Confiada considered herself
superior to the rest of us, so she felt she had no need of the boots that we
lower forms of Equine life wore. While
all the other horses in the yard, including the Field variety I must add,
submitted to having to wear these boots, Confiada would kick and bite any human
that tried to even talk her into wearing them.
I thought:
“Since
we’re wearing leather boots, maybe a leather muzzle would be a useful addition
to Confiada’s outfit.” I told her as
much. Confiada was unimpressed.
“And what
would be the use of that?” She asked
acidly.
“It would
stop you biting humans and horses when you’re angry with them.” I replied.
Confiada spat:
“Pa! Yeah right Beyancca! You’ve got a lot of learning to do my
girl.” With that Confiada lunged at me,
eyes maddened, mouth gaping! I dodged
her credible attempt to bite me and fled from the scene. Confiada came tearing out of her box! She chased me down the yard, up the track,
along the riverbank and finally into a large field where a small herd of cows
was grazing peacefully. As I fled across
their field they looked up curiously.
“What’s
up with you?” One asked calmly.
“I’m
being chased by another horse, willowy white thing, mad eyes, bent on
destroying me, looks like she’d do better in the Household Cavalry.” I panted.
Another cow said:
“I know
‘er, that’s Confiada, she’s a bitch!” A
larger cow, obviously the leader said:
“Don’t
worry young’n, we’ll stop ‘er.” I didn’t
stay to find out if they managed it or not.
I ran to another field and turned back to see if I was safe. My heart was racing as I re-traced my steps
and then stopped.
Squeals of fear and pain were reaching me on the
breeze! I recognised Confiada’s voice
and those of the cows who had promised to help me. I slowly made my way back towards the sound
of battle.
I found Confiada lying flat out on the grass where the
cows had left her. She looked badly
beaten. Her right ear was bleeding and
bruises covered most of her body. As
much as I hated and do still hate her, I couldn’t help feeling sorry for her,
as I had been in a similar situation myself and knew how she would feel when
she regained consciousness. But then I
got to thinking about the fear and hurt she had caused me and my friends, and
the old resentment came back. I turned
her over and she groaned pitifully. What
she said next would have shocked Jasper.
I ignored her remark and made sure I stood well back, so any flying
hooves couldn’t reach me. But Confiada
wasn’t in the mood for fighting. She
felt too bruised and battered for that.
Suddenly a voice in my right ear said sharply:
“And
where the ‘ell’ve you been!” I turned to
find Chantilly standing behind me.
“it’s a
long story.” I replied. Chantilly looked down at Confiada with
distaste.
“It
concern ‘er?” She asked.
“yeah,
main character actually.” I said. Josh piped up then. He’d been riding on Chantilly’s back, not
having the stamina to keep up with her on the long journey to the place where
we now stood.
“Mum,
Where did you go? I woke and you were
gone! I couldn’t find you anywhere! Ellie’s waiting back at the yard in case you
turned up.” I explained about my boots
and the chase n’all.
“But ‘ow
did Confiada get like this? She’s ‘ad
the crap kicked out of ‘er!” Chantilly
observed. I then told them about how the
cows had helped me. They had disappeared
as soon as they’d finished what they felt was their duty. Chantilly carefully prodded Confiada with her
right forefoot. Confiada groaned:
“Get your
bloody boots off me.” Watching the once
proud mare lying there, I couldn’t help feeling wretched at what I’d done. Cows were a horse’s worst enemy when angry
and I’d made them so. In short I’d laid
the best trap I could and It’d paid off.
Chantilly read my mind.
“Don’t
apologise to ‘er B’. She’s not worth
it. If you apologise to ‘er for what you
did, well then she’s got’a apologise to you for all she’s done in the
past. You think she’s gonna do
that?” she asked.
“No,
think not.” I replied. Confiada tried to get to her feet. Her squeal of pain was chilling! I knew then this wasn’t theatrical in any
way, Confiada was in a very bad way indeed.
Confiada flopped back onto the grass sobbing.
“When they
said they’d stop her, I never thought they really meant it!” I thought.
I could see that the cows had really done Confiada damage. That squeal of pain still haunts me now five
weeks later.
“Go
Chantilly! Go quick! Get the Manageress, now!” I commanded.
Chantilly hesitated and I got furious!
“Look
Chantilly, leave josh here, go! Go
now! Before she dies!” I yelled.
Chantilly galloped off leaving Josh behind. The poor foal looked frightened.
“You
shouldn’t be involved in this Josh darling.”
I thought bitterly. This was all
my fault, some of it at least, and now Confiada was seriously injured, and,
well, who knows what would happen next.
Josh came up close and rested his head on my shoulder.
“She
looks awful mum. Is she going to
die?” He whispered.
“I don’t
know Josh darling, I don’t know.” I
replied. Josh gulped:
“I don’t
wan’ ‘er to die mum.” He sobbed. I hugged him.
I knew I couldn’t let Josh see my misgivings about Confiada’s condition.
“She won’t
die Josh, I promise.” I said. This seemed to calm him a little.
The Manageress arrived then. She was riding Chantilly and looking a little
bit anxious about the arrangement.
Chantilly was panting hard.
“’ere she
is, ran as fast as I could I did.” She
gasped. The Manageress slid off
Chantilly’s back and knelt down to take a closer look at Confiada. She questioned me as to what had taken
place. I told her it all. She examined Confiada carefully and found she
had fractured two ribs.
“That’s
what is causing her so much pain I’ll bet.”
The Manageress said. All the
while, Confiada had been moaning that this was all my fault and that the
Manageress, in her opinion, should beat me senseless for my crimes against
her. The Manageress shut Confiada up
when she pointed out that if this was the case, that if she, the Manageress was
permitted to beat horses who committed crimes against others of their own race,
then Confiada would be due for one hell of a beating. The Manageress called for back up and got a
large low loader thing to carry Confiada back to her box. When the hated mare had been loaded onto it
and all was quiet, the Manageress put her arms round my neck and hugged me.
“So this
all sprung from your suggestion that Confiada wear a muzzle ay B’?”
“Mmm, yeah
that’s right.” I replied. The Manageress then turned her attention to
Josh. She stroked the little chap, while
talking to him gently. Josh soon relaxed
and laid his head on her shoulder. Soon
after that he was asleep. Chantilly shook herself, yawned expansively, stamped
about a bit and declared:
“I’m
bloody tired, think I’ll fall asleep ‘ere.”
With that she lay down and was soon snoring loudly. I thumped her:
“Oi! Chantilly you lazy bloody creature! Get up now!”
I barked. Chantilly opened one
eye, regarded me blearily for a second or two and told me in a dreamy voice to:
“Piss off.”
“That
told you mum.” Josh remarked. I prodded Chantilly until she got up slowly
swearing viciously at me. I ignored her
and told Josh to do the same. The
Manageress watched us with a sort of:
“My horses are
mad and I’ve got to get used to it.”
expression on her face. I shook
myself and walked slowly back along the riverbank towards the yard, the others
followed.
When we reached it we saw Confiada staggering
painfully about. She gave me a sour look
and made a credible attempt to kick me.
I dodged the flying hoof and got my attack in far more accurately than
she had hers. My hoof smashed into
Confiada’s fetlock making her shriek with pain.
“You
started this.” I reminded her. Confiada turned and limped off in an
exaggerated fashion.
“Stupid
bitch!” Chantilly said angrily. I walked back to the office in search of my
boots. I found them and stuck my feet
into them. Then Chantilly helped me to
tighten the ratchet that held the boot on.
The feeling of cushioning air under my feet was indescribable. I felt as if I was floating on air, it was
wonderful! I walked across to where
Balugue was being groomed. I crept
silently up to the Lad who was performing this task and calmly removed the brush
he was using. Then I turned sharply and
fled! I pounded down the yard, jumped a
fence into Jinja’s field and streaked across that, over a hedge, across a road
and finally into the woods with my loot.
I stopped, panting hard for air.
I dropped the brush, found a rabbit hole to bury the brush in and did
just that.
“Sorry
Benjamin.” I thought. The job done I wandered about the wood for a
while, thinking of my next move. Those
boots had paid dividends, I knew I’d never have made it this far without
them. You might be asking me why I stole
a brush. To be quite honest about it, I
really don’t know. I felt like doing it
and I did it.
After an hour or so I took a look at the yard from the
safety of the wood’s edge. The Lads were
still bustling about their business, seemingly unmoved by my absence. Then I heard a branch crack! Whirling round I came face to face with
Balugue. I saw instantly she was trying
her hardest not to laugh. She could
hardly control herself as she said:
“The Lad’s
not very happy with you Beyancca. You’d
better,,,” But then she collapsed
against me laughing helplessly.
“Cor’ B’,
you really know how to upset the humans don’t you. I’ve never seen a lad so angry in all my
life. He was a novice! At first he wondered what the hell’d
happened. He never bothered chasing you
because you were well out of range when he recovered. The lads are upset, but I found it
hilarious!” I smiled at her. Balugue needed that after her run in with
Confiada. She levered herself off me and
straightened up. From time to time
Balugue would stifle her laughter. It
seemed my little transgression had amused her greatly. I heard the quick, urgent thudding of a tiny
horse’s hooves coming over the field.
Turning slowly I saw Josh coming fast towards me. He looked wild!
“It’s
Confiada, she, she’s after you mum!” He
panted.
“What? No Josh, she’s got no
quarrel with me. If anyone’s got a bone
to pick, it’s the Lad, not Confiada.
It’s all right love, honest it’s fine.” I replied.
Josh shook his head.
“No no
mum, it’s not. She ‘eard what you did to
the Lad and now she’s on the ‘unt for you.
The Manageress, can’t, cant do anything to stop ‘er mum!” Josh began to cry:
“Confiada’s gonna ‘urt you mum.”
He sobbed. I hugged my foal
tightly. Looking up at the sound of
stumbling hooves, I saw Confiada limping slowly towards me. She looked furious and was putting all her
concentration into getting across that field.
I knew that she’d be beyond fighting when she reached me. Balugue waved a boot at her mockingly.
“Don’t do
that!” I warned sharply. Confiada screamed at Balugue:
“You
bitch! You bloody sod! Do you know how much pain I’m in? Have you any idea what went on in the
field? I don’t think so! Them bloody cows smashed me into the
earth! I don’t know who’s instructions
they were following, but whoever it was had
better watch out, because when I’m better I’ll break them! Bone by bone I’ll break them, I swear, on the
lives of my unborn foals I swear I’ll make them pay!” Someone said:
“Grand
speech, now will you stop talking bull shit!”
We all turned to see, Rosie! It
had to be!
The huge Irish Draft mare stood in front of Confiada
regarding her with disapproval.
“Why the hell’ve
you come back? Get out of our lives
Rosie! Go on! Get out of our lives, and while you’re at it,
take Jinja with you! He’s had enough
time here!” Confiada shouted. Rosie gave Confiada a contemptuous look and
turned to me.
“I know
what you did Beyancca. I watched you as
you did it.” My blood ran cold!
“She’s
gonna blow the bloody whistle on me!” I
thought franticly. But then Rosie said:
“that was
fine work with the brush B’.” Phew! My relieved expression must have registered
with her, because Rosie came up close to me and whispered into my ear:
“I also
know about the cows, but I’m not telling Confiada that.” I nudged her conspiratorially.
“What was
that you were saying to Beyancca Rosie?
Like to share it with us?”
Confiada asked.
“Oh
nothing, nothing at all Confiada.” Rosie
lied. Either she hadn’t heard Confiada’s
spiteful remark about her arrival, or Rosie was choosing to ignore it. But she had heard it. Rosie strode up to Confiada and looked deep into
her eyes.
“What you
said to me did not go unnoticed. Usually
you cannot see me because you do not want to see me. That was then, and is now, but, now is
different because you have to see me because I want you to. I want you to know that you cannot beat up
Beyancca, nor can you beat up Josh without facing the consequences of your
actions. I saw what you did to Beyancca
and her foal. What you did to Beyancca
was inexcusable, what you did to josh was worse! Why should you involve a foal who has nothing
to do with your disagreement? He’s not
even related to Beyancca! But you still
involved him in this sordid game! You
put Beyancca through hell both mentally and physically. I have a good mind, because Beyancca cannot,
to make it so that your hooves are like what B’s were. I can make you suffer Confiada, and mark my
words on that! You are a disgrace to the
herd and I can’t ever see a time when this will change. I hate you!
I think you’re a spiteful, bigoted, snobbish, jumped up mare! I’m even loathed to call you a member of our
species!” Confiada was bristling with
rage!
“How dare
you, ever! Ever speak to me like
that! You horrid bitch-cow Rosie! When you died I could have done so much! But you, along with Beyancca stopped me! You planted Beyancca here didn’t you. You put her here so that I would get
nothing! Beyancca’s all sweetness and
light as far as the bloody humans are concerned. She can do no wrong in their eyes! You brought Beyancca into the yard so that
she, not me, would take over as the main novice trainer! You planned it Rosie, go on, admit you
did!” Rosie said:
“I did
help the Manageress to find my successor, yes I’ll admit that. But Beyancca is her own horse. She can do as she pleases. I have no hold over her Confiada, none at
all.”
All the while I listened with a sort of wonder. Was I really groomed, and I use that word to
mean trained for, the job of leader?
This question and many others weighed on my mind. I thought:
“Had I been
chosen for this job? Had Rosie been
influential in the Manageress’s decision?
Why bring an outsider in to fill the post of leader? Was it that Rosie felt all the others were
too scatterbrained to do the job effectively?
If that is the case, then what sort of test had I undergone to make sure
I wasn’t?” Balugue’s voice cut into my
thoughts.
“Beyancca
looks tortured.” She remarked. I seemed to have gone into a sort of
trance. I didn’t seem to be part of
reality any more. It was as if the events
of the last seven months had finally sank in.
Rosie’s death, the upheaval in the herd immediately after, Balugue’s
breakdown, my being catapulted into the job and all that had followed, well, it
seemed to make sense now. Rosie touched
my nose with hers, bringing me back down to earth. I realised my mouth was dry and I had a
horrid feeling in the pit of my stomach.
“I can’t
cope with this!” I thought
franticly. Rosie noticed my distress.
“Don’t
fret Beyancca, it’s going to be fine.” She
said gently. I managed to gabble:
“What? What’s going to be
fine? What’s happening?” Rosie replied:
“Wait
until tonight Beyancca, then I will tell you.”
She turned to Balugue and Josh.
“You two
tell all the other horses, be they Field or yard, to meet in the main yard at
midnight. Tell the Manageress also, but
no other humans must be present, no instructors!” Rosie stamped her foot to emphasise this
point. As for Confiada, Rosie turned to
her and said:
“You will
attend this gathering. If you do not,
you will suffer.” Confiada bowed her
head in submission to the absolute leader and high commander of the yard herd.
To say I was frightened would be an
understatement. I cannot begin to
describe the fear and terror. I didn’t
know what was going to happen. Rosie
stayed with me throughout the rest of the day.
She always stuck close to me.
Rosie even warned Jinja off!
Perhaps she didn’t want his attention.
Once he made a particularly powerful advance on her and Rosie warned him
off severely.
“Later
Jinja! I’ll talk to you later! Leave me alone! Go away!
Now!” Jinja’s agonised expression
would have melted a heart of stone, but not Rosie’s. it was plain she was terrified by what she
had to do at midnight. She shooed Jinja
away and stood shaking violently. When I
asked her what the matter was I got the same sharp response.
“Don’t,
don’t talk to me, leave me alone Beyancca.”
Then she whinnied loudly:
“For
heaven’s sake just leave me alone!” I
could see she was in terrible pain. What
was she going to say at midnight? What
was she going to do? I didn’t know.
The day seemed to drag interminably. Thankfully josh and I were kept
together. If we’d been separated I think
we would have both gone mad! I think I
owe him a lot. He kept me sane! Soon however, midnight did arrive.
All the horses were grouped in the yard. It was a tight squeeze, but we managed
it. Rosie, or her spirit, stood on a
raised platform next to me. The horses
fell silent. I looked up to where the
Manageress stood looking out at the scene from her bedroom window. Rosie cleared her throat and began to speak.
“There has
been many changes in the yard since April.
I know that most, if not all of you have heard what events took place
then. Due to these events a new leader
has had to be found for the herd.
Subsequent elections failed to vote in a horse who could do the job. Not that this is any reflection on those
horses who were voted in. During their
reign they did the best they could, but for reasons of their own, they decided that they could not continue in the
post. So it was down to me to find a
suitable leader. Balugue handed the
leadership over to Beyancca a month ago today.
But this does not mean in any way that Beyancca will automatically
become leader. But due to the almost
total support for her in her honorary role as herd leader, I propose to make
her fully responsible for the well being of the herd. She has been through a lot these last few
days and has stood up to it well. But
that is not to say I put her up to it!
These tests have naturally occurred and have proven to you, me, the
Manageress and hopefully Beyancca herself also, that she can do her job!” At this point I seriously wanted to collapse
on the platform, but I knew that wouldn’t do.
Rosie continued:
“Will
those horses who hold objection to this proposal speak now or forever hold
their peace.” There was absolute
silence. I began to wonder if Confiada
was present. But then I saw her standing
off to the right of Jinja. Strangely she
said nothing. Rosie said:
“as there
is no objection, I will now formally pass the leadership of the yard herd over
to Beyancca your new chief and supreme commander!” My legs just collapsed under me!
When I came to, my head was resting on the wooden
platform beside Rosie’s right forefoot.
I stared at her hoof for a while before attempting to rise. I made it to my feet, just, and surveyed the
scene. All the horses were just as I’d
left them. Standing erect and
motionless. I looked at Rosie in
desperation. I asked quietly:
“What the
hell’re we gonna do now?” Rosie’s reply
was:
“you tell
me, you’re leader.” I took a deep breath
and asked:
“Where’s
an order of ceremony when you need one?”
This made most of the horses laugh, but it wasn’t meant to. It was a cry for help if anything. Josh laid his head on my shoulder and I was
distracted by him. I rubbed his nose
briefly with mine.
“NOW’s
not the time Josh.” I whispered. Josh said:
“I can
see you’re upset mum. I was only trying
to ‘elp.” Evidently it was up to me to
make the first move. I cleared my
throat.
“I haven’t
had any experience of these sort of occasions before. To be quite honest, I’m lost!” Jinja said:
“Just
tell us what to do. You’re leader now.”
“Um, ah,
go get on with your lives?” I
suggested. With that all the horses
filed off to their various occupations and within five minutes the yard was
clear. Rosie hugged me and then walked
off with Jinja. Josh, Ellie who had
stayed behind, and I were left in the middle of the yard. Ellie embraced me tightly. This broke my control. I buried my head in Ellie’s shoulder and
cried. I think the whole thing just got
on top of me then. Ellie let me
cry. Soon however the torrent dried up
and I felt a bit better about the situation.
I levered myself off of Ellie’s shoulder and shook myself. I took a deep breath to steady myself.
“It seemed
like a dream, the leadership I mean, but now it’s very real.” I said to noone in particular. Brydy came into sight then. She walked slowly towards me and stopped as
she reached my side. She hesitated:
“Go on
Brydy, wha’s matter?” I asked
gently. Brydy looked frightened:
“Now you’re
leader n’all that. Does this mean that
you’re gonna distance yourself from the herd.
You know, only get your hooves dirty when it’s really necessary?” What she really meant to, but could not bring
herself to say was:
“I don’t
want you to leave me Beyancca!” I hugged
Brydy and stroked her ears with my muzzle.
This always relaxed her, and now was no exception. Brydy rested her head on my shoulder.
“I’m
still your friend Brydy. The leadership
won’t change that.” I reassured
her. I stroked her cheek gently with my
muzzle. Brydy slipped into a sort of
dream. This was how I wanted her to
be. The problem with Brydy was that she
worried unnecessarily about everything.
This constant anxiety affected her whole life. I’ve known her not to sleep for days on end
because she was worrying about one thing or another. I won’t pretend that I’ve liked Brydy all the
time I’ve known her. No, actually for a
considerable time I feared her. Her
inner confusion frightened me. I
couldn’t cope with a horse who had such mixed ideas about everything. But now, well now was so different. I had learned to accept Brydy for who she was
and to make no attempt to change her. If
the truth be known, I loved Brydy’s openness.
I suppose her upbringing has something to do with it, Ireland
n’all. I don’t know, can’t really say
for sure. Brydy woke from her dream and
straightened up. She looked at me long
and hard for a minute or so.
“Thank
you.” Was all she said. I noticed for the first time, and not without
a degree of shock! That Brydy hadn’t
referred to me by name at all during our encounter. As she walked away I blocked her path.
“Look
Brydy dear.” I said soothingly:
“I’m
still Beyancca, your friend. Just
because I am leader now doesn’t mean I’ll forget my friends. I’ll still protect you Brydy. I’ll never forget where I’ve come from,
never! Just because I’ve been given the
responsibility of herd leader doesn’t mean that I’ve got no time for other
horses, you know that. Come on, don’t be
silly Brydy.” I coaxed. Brydy sighed, she sniffed and gulped back
tears:
“I’m
sorry, I’ve got’a go.” She choked. With that she fled at a sort of half walk,
half run type of pace. I didn’t follow her.
Meanwhile Ellie and Josh had watched this with varying
degrees if alarm on Ellie’s part and confusion on Josh’s. I walked back to my box and the others
followed. I lay down on my straw bed and
tried to relax. Josh lay down beside me
and I hugged him.
“you’re
leader then mum, proper I mean.” He
said. All of a sudden I felt very
tearful indeed, I can’t say what triggered it, but I rested my head against
Josh’s shoulder and cried into his fur.
“’ey mum,
don’t cry, please don’t cry.” Josh said
gently. He rubbed my nose with his.
“Wha’s
matter mum?” He asked softly.
“I don’t
know Josh darling, I don’t know anything much lately.” I sobbed.
Josh said:
“You’re
leader now. ‘ey, tell you what mum, I’ll
start you off shall I?” Here he raised
his voice to a shout and said:
“Confiada! Get your arse into
that box now!” He looked at me for a
reaction. I was so shocked by his use of
Chantilly like language that at first I couldn’t say or do much. All right I’m not very clean mouthed myself,
but to hear a foal use that sort of talk was a shock! I started to say:
“Josh! You don’t, you
don’t,,,” But then I could hold on to my
control no longer. I laughed helplessly. I think that was the best thing Josh could have
said at that moment. Ellie also found it
funny, if the waving hooves were anything to go by. Ellie was engaged in rolling on the straw,
waving her legs in the air in a most undignified display. I dried my eyes and stood up. A voice in my ear said:
“Beyancca?” I turned sharply to see Jinja standing by my
door. He looked more distressed than I’d
ever seen him before. He was making a
masterful attempt to keep his emotions under control. I opened my door and went over to him.
“What is it? What’s happened Jinja?” I asked.
Jinja gulped:
“It’s
Rosie, she’s leaving me for good Beyancca.”
With that Jinja’s control snapped.
He buried his head in my fur and wept.
I, MARTIN WILSHER, here by assert and give notice of my right under
section 77 of the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988 to be identified as
the author of the foregoing article.
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